Hello all....it's been a while.  I've checked in to the forum now and then to see how all of you are going, but didn't really take the time to post.

I think I've been depressed - you may think I should know if I've been depressed or not, but here's the thing - I don't.

It's only now that I feel like I'm coming out of a daze/haze.  Questioning myself, wondering what has happened in this last year or so and I seem to be drawing a blank.  I know I've made it through each day, seen family, interacted but haven't been quite there.  No - I'm not on drugs (or additional/new medication) and I don't drink.  Be a darn good excuse if I had been though.  Self-medication through food it seems.

And coming out of this haze I have found I have put on the weight I had lost, plus another 20.  How??? Well obviously eating...
I remember sitting on the couch a lot - never a good thing. 

It's only been a couple of weeks but  I'm dragging myself out of myself and have put my toes to the line to start my life again.   

I'm one of those people that seems to put weight on no problem, but to take it off is like....well can't think of a comparison.

So instead of concentrating too much on the pounds on/off, I am aiming for eating for health and hopefully a clear mind.   The scale is not the boss of me.  What I actually did was get a s/s chain (like for a necklace) that fits around my waist exactly.  It was actually scary when I saw how big the chain was.  I chose chain as it has no give.  Every so often I will pop it on and see how I'm going.  I did think to wear it  as a constant reminder but it gets caught in the clothes.

Here's hoping....fingers crossed.... my mind always feels much clearer when I'm eating well.

C U around 

It doesn't matter the circumstances, excuses are just that. Doesn't change anything.  Life sucked and things went bad.  So here I am (not that I ever really left, was still checking the forum - my heart just wasn't in it) with the weight I lost back on and then some.  Ah well.  Life's a journey, enjoy the ride 

As long as I never give up trying, I will get there in the end.  The worst thing to do would be to just chuck it in.

I recommitted almost a week ago.  The thing is when I am not following this plan, I ache so much, my anxiety makes itself known and I am always eating - never satisfied, never full.

Detox isn't a big issue for me I've found.  Originally, when I first started, cravings would eat at me.  These days it feels more like an on/off button - I really think it's more to do with 'inner permission'.  Apart from a couple of minor headaches, and nausea/heartburn (which is actually my signal that I am need to eat and have left it too long) I am
okay.

That being said, you will be 'seeing' more of me around making comments to keep myself honest. 
C U later. 

When you talked about your shredded cheese having carbs, I really appreciated that my cheese here in Australia didn't.  I was obviously too smug for my own good.  I picked up my usual shredded cheese that was zero carbs and low and behold guess what now has an anti-caking ingredient and is now also 1.5c/100g.  Why in the world do they do this. Change a perfectly zero carb item to one with carbs?  I only bought it occasionally to save grating my own for a change, even though it was a little bit more expensive. Gosh darn it they keep changing stuff and not for the better

Translation - always read the labels, no matter how many times you have bought it before.

HAPPY NEW YEAR  one and all........be, safe, be happy, be true to yourself 

I know this is the guys go to place - but just wondering. - since last post was some time ago - don't guys have as many issues as us girls?  Or are you too shy?

I've  been using leftover coconut cream in my coffee and its tasted great. Also spoon it over my strawberries, but its got me wondering is it better or worse than normal cream. Coconut oil is good for you, is coconut cream also.
Any thoughts people?   

Hello everyone, it's been a while - let's just say, life got in the way and I reverted to my default setting of comfort eating.  There's been good days and bad days.  I think I've reconciled my life, but it was touch and go for a while - lost at sea (a sea of food - well not just food, but emotions). 

I have been lurking on the forum, never quite giving up but fighting myself for control.  Honestly, if you were a junkie you just stay away from the drugs, being a carb addict there is a whole range of stuff to stay away from (even though it boils down to just one - SUGAR). 

Welcome to all the newbies, I hope you have made friends with all the long timers on the forum.  The people who have been there, done that and can help you through your journey.  They really are great and very helpful.

Let's get chatting - how has everyone been?

hmmm...some advice please.  It seems I am well overdue for my yearly blood tests (I think I've been avoiding them - if my cholesterol is up I don't plan to take statins, why bother with the test?).  The thing is I've just gotten back on track and drinking a bottle of sugar is not going to be helpful at all.  I'm pretty sure I'm not diabetic - no symptoms.  I've had a number of these tests over the years and they are all 'boarderline' (6 or under).  So would not need take anything at this stage.  Thinking I may take the bloods, but skip the glucose.  Unsure.  Thoughts?