Okay, I've been doing a TERRIBLE job on sticking to what I should...but I'm not giving up. However, I'd really appreciate it if there's anyone who is a major Facebooker that might add me as a friend on there and help keep me accountable. I am on Facebook ALL the time practically...and since I'm doing this alone, I could use someone to help keep me on track on FB. I post a lot of stuff on there, personal stuff and I have my privacy settings really high, so it's almost impossible to search me, but I might could find one of ya'll and add ya'll...but I need more accountability and encouragement. If anyone is interested you can PM me if you want with your name so I can find you! I post a lot of political/religious stuff on FB so warning, if you're easily offended, you might not want to add me thanks in advance! Oh, my name on FB is Desiree Morrison, but like I said I'm hard to find. I was trying to add another FTS member but we couldn't find each other because of privacy settings :\

Hey TooSweet! I have tried those when I was vegan that was one of the only frozen "ice cream" desserts I could have! I LOVE all the SoDelicious products. You can also get them at Kroger Signature and some regular Kroger stores btw! There's where I get mine, we don't have a whole foods here they are awesome, and most of them don't have a strong coconutty flavor persay, so even if you don't like coconut (my hubby doesn't) most people will still find them tasty. I can't tell you how many times I caught my husband sneaking my yummies and eating them  glad you found them!

Thanks everyone I could use some successes in my life right now! Ready to see some good changes

So, Friday I was 238, yesterday I was 240, today...244. I'm starting to think I'm the only person in the world that gains 4 pounds from squash and salad. Meh  guess we'll see what happens. I think I'm going to just keep sticking to it and doing what I'm supposed to do. Pray for a change.

Thank you Umpa yeah I'm struggling today too. My pulse was 147 yesterday resting...and it's not much better today...so I'm taking it easy. I will make a list of what I have after I make a quickie trip to the store where'll I look crazy because I'll probably have to use a scooter :\ ugh. Talk with you all soon! Thank you again love you all.

Oh I'm not starving myself at all    ...the problem is, I just don't get hungry for a very long time. I'm not sure why. I think something is wrong. Very wrong...after the lasix yesterday, I woke up six pounds lighter again :\ I went from 244 to 238 this morning. I may be going to ER today or tomorrow...I'm not feeling well at all. In the past, when I've been very sick...my stomach is the first to shut down. Doctor says it's my body's way of preventing it from throwing up. I'll keep everyone updated. Just keep me in your thoughts or prayers. I appreciate you all and need you.

What keeps me on track:

1. I've done it once, I can do it again.
2. I got a taste of what it felt like to be THIN.
3. My dad died at 31 of a heart attack...I don't want to die from food.
4. My husband, he's a handsome, strapping man that deserves a sexy wife...
5. Our intimacy, hope this isn't TMI but ya'll are life family, when I'm big like I am now, and he's so fit, I don't like to be intimate because I hate how I look, and that hurts our marriage.
6. I have beautiful kids, and I don't want them to be embarrassed of their fat mom.
7. My SKINNY PANTS! Sounds stupid, but I SO love those pants, and I miss wearing them
8. I recently went to my class reunion, I was the ONLY girl there that had gained weight, one of our friends lost 100 pounds...I was just there myself in 2011!
9. I'm tired of hiding from former classmates and people I haven't seen in a long time because I feel bad about myself. I'm tired of hiding in produce :\
10. Because I deserve better and I'm tired of feeling like everyone is talking about me when the topic of "Obesity in America" comes up

Some of these might seem shallow, but these are my reasons...and they FAR outnumber the reasons for why I want to eat chocolate cake all day