Well people, it's that time again - official monthly weigh in.  I had about a 3 week plateau where nothing moved except my foot to kick the scales.  The last week it wobbled and I lost 2lb, which kinda sucks to say the least, but at least the numbers went down.  I had planned my usual 7lb or so (I was hoping for more because going on holiday soon) - moral of the story: don't plan on a weight loss - your body will do what it wants to.

Oh well - positive thinking and visualisation for the next month.  lol  (visualise those scales co-operating!!!!)

Maybe I will go and have a little chat with those scales 

yayayayayayayayay  CONGRATULATIONS happy dance for you

how could you not realise lol

Just re-reading some of these posts and realised I haven't done my jeans test for quite a while.  I'll have to summon up the courage and see how far I can get them up this time.  I know I still have a ways to go (I did choose a size 14 - silly me?) but refuse to get a bigger pair.  This is my ideal so I sticking with it.  Will report after I try them on. 

On the plus side, will have to be getting rid of some of my favourite clothes - I happy to say they are TOO BIG!!!!!

  hahahahaha

I am happily going along with the fts lifestye, it's not a hassle and I have plenty of variety (barring the fact that I almost can't go a day without bacon and eggs). When I eat out I can usually manage to pick something I can eat or take something with me.  Why Oh Why do I suddenly want to chuck it all in and eat 'normally' like other people?  I feel good in myself, am losing weight (though I think I have hit my first plateau - 3 weeks and nothing - in the 23 weeks I have been eating this way).  I  tell myself all the things I've read here - it's a time for the body to readjust, blah blah - and I do believe it.  I have measured and things have shrunk - yay.  When I see sugar I still see 'poison'  but totally, as irrational as it seems, there are times I just want to chuck it in.

I have not eaten anything not fts approved since I started; occasionally I have a pasta/cake/bread craving - I have substituted these with fts - but want the real thing. The old things.  The comfort things I suppose.  I have a fear if I give in I ain't gonna want to go back. 

Is there a sugar addiction deep in my psyche somewhere that I am never going to kick.  damn!
Is it psychological?  Boredom? - I don't think so.  Is it the fact that I feel like I stand out in a group of people when eating?
I make no fuss when I need to eat, but people look at me funny when I say no to a biscuit, cake, potatoes, bread, etc or when I put cream in my coffee.

I presume (I hope) I am not the only one who feels this way?  Or am I?

omg!  scary stuff.  Hope you make a complete recovery.

Well, you live and learn and the simplest things sometimes aren't and don't presume.  I took my daugher and her boyfriend out for her birthday lunch.  I went over the menu and though there weren't too many things that fell into the fts style I thought the one I picked wasn't too bad.

Crispy cajun chicken with jalepeno salt, coleslaw and a dressing made of olive oil, lemon juice and seasonings, with a little drizzle of aioli (like mayo) - entree size.   Hmm, imagine my surprise when what I got was crumbed deep-fried chicken with no taste of cajun let alone jalepeno.  The coleslaw (approx 1/2 cup which was just dumped on top) was okay.  2 of us ordered it and we both looked at each other and thought - this is not what I expected.

I peeled off the coating and ate the meal.  I mean pointless to return it as it was as stated I suppose, though when the waitress came to collect and asked how the meal was we both told her wasn't what we thought - didn't expect crumbed and deep fried and lack of cajun/jalepeno.  Her only comment was sorry (but she wasn't) but it did say crispy.  Crispy yes it did say, crumbed and deep-fried it did not.  We were both expecting more like a 'seasoning' coating (like blackened) fried (not deep-fried).

Lesson learned - next time ask wait staff to explain exactly what it means and the cooking proceedure.