Well first let me start by saying that I am 2 lbs shy of where I was when I went off.. I have passed the minor detox and I am back on track..
2nd, my daughter learned via her stepmom what happened to her dad. She saw him yesterday and had a good visit.. She felt he was his old old self again. When she refers to his old self, she means like he was before all this stuff started happening over 2 yrs ago.. His parents also see a huge difference. He has an appt today with a psychiatrist to be evaluated.
3rd, I took the step to completely withdraw/dismiss everything against my ex husband (the filing was to take place today). Though he had signed the agreement for the increase in CS and the additional things he needed to be responsible for, I felt and believe that it was crucial to his recovery that he not have added stress. Some think I am a fool, I believe and have faith that God will guide me through and that I have made the right decision. Its obvious that he is in a sensitive state and may not be able to work, I do not want to add to his stress level by him wondering how he is going to make ends meet. I didnt tell him, I told his wife. I dont know if she will tell him or not, but I am happy with my decision. It will be a little of a struggle, but God hasnt failed me yet.. Sometimes he doesnt respond within the time requested but hey, he has a lot of children and ultimately he comes through everytime.
My attorney told me that it wouldnt look good, I told her that I have to do whats right. The twinkle in my daughter's eye when she came home from seeing him was amazing. I had not seen it in a while.. that alone is priceless... She too doesnt know about this and I will tell later today. I know that it will bring her comfort to know that at least from my end, he will not have any pressure or issues that will impair his ability to recover.
4th, I went to church yesterday and it was sooooo refreshing.. Ironically the topic was spiritual growth.. Talk about perfect timing..
5th I love all you soooooo much.. I know that I havent met you in person, but those words are written with true love...
A quote that I read the other day.
FAILURE IS NOT FALLING, ITS NOT STANDING UP!!!!!