Hi, Everyone...!
I'm so sorry I've been out of commission for a while on these forums... It has been VERY rough lately... My almost 94-year-old mother-in-law lives with us and has dementia and about 9 weeks ago she had some kind of incident (possibly stroke) where she has gotten MUCH worse. She goes for days (24 hours even at night) talking to people who aren't there - sometimes VERY loudly - and this is really messing up my sleep and that's messing up my other health problems. Also, I'm the one here with her every day while my husband is at work, so it's been quite hard on me.
I'm down 65 lbs. total now, but it has really SLOWED down and that's bugging me so badly because I still have so far to go (130 more lbs.) and I don't want it to be THIS sloooowwwwww. I'm doing okay with my eating most of the time still but at times the stress of this whole situation gets to me and I give in. Also, people are bringing SO many sweets over for my mother-in-law because that's about all she will eat these days - and watching her eat them and so many being around and me being here alone so much - dang, it's hard!! And when I'm not giving into "real sweets" and other carbs, I'm craving something sweet or carb-y just to ease this stress and I go for too many of the sugar free candies, bars., etc., just to feel like I'm eating "something" sweet like everyone else in the house is doing...
On the positive side, when I think of how far I've come since just September when I started this way of eating - and how badly I was doing then - it's amazing to me. Can't remember if I shared about my A1C - ? But it was 9.8 in September when I was in the hospital - and last month I tested at 5.6!!!! That is actually considered "non-diabetic" levels!! My doctor said she'd never seen anyone do that much that fast and especially being on insulin. I am TRULY hoping to get totally OFF the insulin and hopefully SOON!!!! I know the more weight comes off, the quicker I'll be off the insulin - which is another reason I'm hoping it will hurry UP already! Also, I realized I'm now only 35 lbs. away from being able to get a knee replacement - IF I still need one at that point... but at least I'd have the choice...
Thanks so much for being there, everyone, and I'm going to try to make the time to stay on these forums more even with everything that's going on... I'm having such feelings of guilt about feeling so selfish with being forced into this position of caretaker when I have so many of my own health problems that WERE getting better and are now getting worse again
