Well I did not even get on the scale yesterday
. Since the tornado last Wensday I have wanted to turn to comfort food . Although I ate only FTS foods I did eat too much .
There is so much loss and devestation not only my friend that died but my best friends son 8 years old is having trouble from screaming in the closet thinking he was goona die to then walking out his door and just 50 yards away his friends homes or gone .
My niece lost a classmate ,just so much sadness.
How can anyone can go through something like this without God I do not know . Now there or looters stealing from these people & a couple being shot .Seems this kinda of thing brings out the best & worst out of people .
Well Yesterday I went to the area to bring some FTS food & diabetic supplies because I am sure the poor diabetics were getting high sugar from all the junk food that was getting taken in . That was my first thought when it happen But by the Grace of God go I with Tyler out there needing his insulin and ........
Oh well getting off my story again . My husband called me when I was on the way back and told me to stop at this Mexican place that we use to go to when we lived in that area to get him these chips that only they make ,that we have not had in probably 3 years & boy we could put them away .
So I got to the place as soon as they opened I ordered him too bags and when I got them in my hands they were hot and smelled good and I ate some from pure frustration & depression .
Now I feel like such a failure ,I have felt bad about it since I did it . It was the first time in almost 8 months that I ate anything like that . I guess I ate about 10 because Tyler was with me and I gave him the bag and he closed it up and put it in the trunk . I went back to FTS for the rest of the day but between the peanuts since Thursday of last week and the chips Yesterday I know that I went over my carbs .
But today is back to FTS just feel so so bad
