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Lean On My Shoulder / Re: Here's what I ate today, how did I do?
« on: January 23, 2013, 02:05:34 AM »
Thank you TooSweet and Morgan for the birthday wishes!!! I will go to the links you send me for sure and read them. I've never been part of a forum and never knew how. Now I look forward to writing and reading here every day, it's the greatest help and support I could imagine, thank you Doug. You and Sherri are great...you all are. I am so grateful to be part of this new family in my life. I won't go on the scale or take measurements. I have a bad eating disorder and I get obsessed, so I'm better off (believe me) not doing it that way. I have to be utterly and horribly blunt here (I read a posting about constipation on here and Umpa said to say anything, so I am about to!!!)...when I can't reach myself to wipe in the bathroom, I KNOW from past experience what my weight has ballooned to. I know how my clothes will fit and how I will feel when the weight's coming off. I know it's not coming off, but I will NOT give up eating this way. No chance. Doug, when you told me to get a grip of myself, you were right. I'm a very worried, scared person. I know I will die if I don't take this weight off and keep killing myself with food and being so sedentary. I write this at 11pm and I'm hungry. I wish I could eat something, I barely at anything today as I wasn't hungry. But I don't want the reflux...I may just have a very, very low carb whey drink, about 2 carbs in the whole thing. Unsweetened almond milk's a great tool I have to say that eating nuts scares me, I have to still figure things out and navigate through all of this, but Sherri, you're right, keep it very simple. Thank you all for being there. Your grateful friend, Marian